ITS MY HUMAN NATURE. WHATS YOURS?

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I was the  girl who grew up cloaked in fairy tales and drifting between happily ever afters. I grew up reading stories of people beating the odds and falling in love. I grew up believing in things that filled my heart to the brim with hope.

I am the type of girl who's always been a dreamer. I've always been the one people scoffed at when I talked about love. I've been the girl who thinks of love in a thousand different shades of the brightest colors, while the rest of the world sees black and white. 



I am

 type of girl you think is absolutely crazy because I am just so crazy about love. The silliest thing about it all is that I have been hurt so much you'd be shaken to know I have never given up. But how could I give up when it's all I used to dream of? So I continue to pick petals until this field of flowers is empty, and even then I'll wait for the rain so they can grow again. I'll pick every petal towards destiny.

I am the type of girl who doesn't know how not to feel. I feel so much that emotions spill from me. People have always questioned it and tried to change my ways, but they don't know what they're missing. They may notice when I am so deep in despair that I'm too weak to breathe for air, but they don't notice the elation that escapes me when I can't hold the magic of joy between my teeth. Feeling is who I am. It is my biggest weakness, but more so... it is my biggest strength.

I WAS THE GIRL WHO JUST COULDNT WAIT TO SAY " OH MY MAN IS COMING , OH MY MAN IS GONNA FIX MY CAR, OR WHEN HE IS AROUND ME  HE IS MY TOP JUST AS I AM HIS.

I am the type of girl who tends to get her heart broken. I incline to trust, I lean towards risk, and I lead with the heart on my sleeve. It hasn't always done right by me, but oh how much it has taught me. It has taught me how much of myself I will give for another, the parts I keep for myself, and the magic of putting missing pieces together with the new ones I configured. I am who I am because of my breaks, and oh my how they sparkle so brightly, dismantled together.

I am absolutely nothing like the type of girl I thought I would be. I've found I have more dreams AND DRIVE than just saying "I do." I've found I want to see more things than just love at first sight. I've found that I can feel blissful even when I am completely alone. I've found that I have created a reality far better than the scribbles in my diary. Yet one thing remains steady: I have never given up on love, or what it could be. I still believe it will be like seeing the brightest color and waking up from my lifelong daydream

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  I KNOW WHO I AM .  I HAVE A TATTOO ON THE SIDE OF MY TUMMY THAT SAYS  IN HEBREW " ITS A BLESSING YET  A CURSE TO FEEL EVERYTHING SO VERY DEEPLY"
 ITS MY ANTHEM ITS WHAT I WELCOME MYSELF INTO. I KNOW ME WELL I KNOW HOW I PICK MYSELF BACK UP. IM NOT NAIVE I KNOW MY BOUNDARIES I LOVE MYSELF BUT I ALSO BELIEVE IN WHAT LOVE WHAT LOVE CAN DO.